from the book THE ALCHEMY KEY
Unraveling the Single Tangible Secret in all Mysteries
A COMMUNITY OF THE SPIRIT
There is a community of the spirit.
Join it, and feel the delight
of walking in the noisy street,
and being the noise.
Drink all your passion,
and be a disgrace.
Close both eyes
to see with the other eye.
Open your hands,
if you want to be held.
Sit down in this circle.
Quit acting like a wolf, and feel
the shepherd’s love filling you.
At night, your beloved wanders.
Don’t accept consolations.
Close your mouth against food.
Taste the lover’s mouth in yours.
You moan, “She left me.” “He left me.”
Twenty more will come.
Be empty of worrying.
Think of who created thought!
Why do you stay in prison
when the door is so wide open?
Move outside the tangle of fear-thinking.
Live in silence.
Flow down and down in always
widening rings of being.
And i’m leaving you with a beautiful song of Sacred Spirit: Yeha Noha
” If liberty means anything at all, it means the right to tell people what they do not want to hear. “(G. Orwell)
Meditatio (Ezra Pound)
When I carefully consider the curious habits of dogs
I am compelled to conclude
That man is the superior animal.
When I consider the curious habits of man
I confess, my friend, I am puzzled.
Slave Market with Disappearing Bust of Voltaire, 1940 (Salvador Dali)
The current situation we are traped into can not be better explained than with this Dali’s picture. The whole drama about coming recession, oil prices, problems in bank sector might be just illusion but with very real consequences for ordinary people. Although we can hear and see in media just upper layer of this phenomena there are many different layers behind…some of them hardly visible, some of them distorted or invisible on a first sight. (The credit crisis explained in black and white; US faces global funding crisis, warns Merrill Lynch). Another very good article with good comments Morgan Stanley warns of ‘catastrophic event’ as ECB fights Federal Reserve.
See bellow two must see documentaries which give insight into the roots of the current problems. Nothing just happens; every event has it own cycle with some visible icebergs on a surface. Money masters documentary is a bit old but never so accurate than today. It gives clear geneses of economical problems and its effects on people who are “slaves” in the whole story.
The power of corporate media shows how this optical illusion for ordinary people is done. The technology for mass deception.
Although this two documentaries are must for financial and media experts they are much more important to be seen by all people to understand why what we see is not what we get.
“The powers of financial capitalism had a far-reaching plan, nothing less than to create a world system of financial control in private hands able to dominate the political system of each country and the economy of the world as a whole…Their secret is that they have annexed from governments, monarchies, and republics the power to create the world’s money…” THE MONEY MASTERS is a 3 1/2 hour non-fiction, historical documentary that traces the origins of the political power structure that rules our nation and the world today. The modern political power structure has its roots in the hidden manipulation and accumulation of gold and other forms of money. The development of fractional reserve banking practices in the 17th century brought to a cunning sophistication the secret techniques initially used by goldsmiths fraudulently to accumulate wealth. With the formation of the privately-owned Bank of England in 1694, the yoke of economic slavery to a privately-owned “central” bank was first forced upon the backs of an entire nation, not removed but only made heavier with the passing of the three centuries to our day. Nation after nation, including America, has fallen prey to this cabal of international central bankers
He disapproved of American involvement in the war and tried to use his political contacts in Washington D.C. to prevent it. He spoke on Italian radio and gave a series of talks on cultural matters. Pound believed that economics was the core issue at hand. Specifically, his talks were largely about usury and the notion that representative democracy has been usurped by bankers’ infiltration of governments through the existence of central banks, which made governments pay interest to private banks for the use of their own money. He maintained that the central bank’s ability to create money out of thin air allowed banking interests to buy up American and British media outlets to sway opinion in favor of the war and the banks. Pound was not the first prominent American to make this assertion; for example New York City Mayor John Hylan had publicly said the same thing back in 1922 when he said “these international bankers control the majority of the magazines and newspapers in this country.” Pound believed that economic freedom was a prerequisite for a free country. Inevitably, he touched on political matters, and incorporated antisemitism into his denunciations of the war.
Pound believed that the bankers in charge of the Federal Reserve and their associates in the Bank of England were responsible for getting the United States into both World Wars, in an effort to drive up government debt beyond sustainable levels (the national debt indeed rose astronomically because of the wars). The book, Secrets Of The Federal Reserve, charges that bankers hide behind the screen of the central banks and pull political strings to drive countries into the war, creating immense profits for themselves as the principal beneficiaries of wartime debt. Pound advocated an abandonment of the current system of money being created by private bankers. He favored government issued currency with no interest to pay, preventing the need for an income tax and national debt, much like the system used by the Pennsylvania Colony from 1723 to 1764. Pound argued that his views on money aligned with those of Thomas Jefferson, as well as with Benjamin Franklin’s Colonial Scrip.
Orwell Rolls in His Grave is a 2004 documentary film written and directed by Robert Kane Pappas. It examines the current and past relationships between the media, the US government and corporations, analyzing the possible consequences of the concentration of media ownership. Making references to George Orwell’s novel 1984, the film argues that reality has met and in some ways exceeded Orwell’s expectations about a society dominated by thought control, which is made possible by the media. According to the film, the mass media no longer report news, but manage them, deciding what makes the headlines and what is conveniently ignored, thus ultimately defining the framework upon which most other issues are discussed by the society.
New challenge everyday
You keep away and delay
When I act to close the gap
Fate says there is a bigger play.
Its a full moon today. As a crab, water sign, i am highly addicted to it. Solstice Moon Illusion by NASA . “Sometimes you just can’t believe your eyes. This week is one of those times. On Wednesday night, June 18th, step outside at sunset and look around. You’ll see a giant form rising in the east. At first glance it looks like the full Moon. It has craters and seas and the face of a man, but this “moon” is strangely inflated. It’s huge! You’ve just experienced the Moon Illusion. ” (see also Experiment in Perception: The Ponzo Illusion and the Moon
Call it coincidence or not, but just today my life has been “strangely inflated”. New giant form is rising in my east ……..
Not sure either is illusion or not, but i did it, felt it, not just thought about…i was dare to be myself …. and it is the best intoxication you can ever have. Among so many fake selves real me.
No additional words needed cos vocabulary is pretty poor to explain it. But true, so much things have to be given up to get back, to feel you, your own self … But reward is overwhelming … It’s such a beautiful natural cycle…going with the flow and being surprised what life brings you next.
See bellow very good article from Psychology today.
A sense of authenticity is one of our deepest psychological needs, and people are more hungry for it than ever. Even so, being true to oneself is not for the faint of heart.
It starts innocently enough, perhaps the first time you recognize your own reflection.
You’re not yet 2 years old, brushing your teeth, standing on your steppy stool by the bathroom sink, when suddenly it dawns on you: That foam-flecked face beaming back from the mirror is you.
You. Yourself. Your very own self.
It’s a revelation—and an affliction. Human infants have no capacity for self-awareness. Then, between 18 and 24 months of age, they become conscious of their own thoughts, feelings, and sensations—thereby embarking on a quest that will consume much of their lives. For many modern selves, the first shock of self-recognition marks the beginning of a lifelong search for the one “true” self and for a feeling of behaving in accordance with that self that can be called authenticity.
A hunger for authenticity guides us in every age and aspect of life. It drives our explorations of work, relationships, play, and prayer. Teens and twentysomethings try out friends, fashions, hobbies, jobs, lovers, locations, and living arrangements to see what fits and what’s “just not me.” Midlifersdeepen commitments to career, community, faith, and family that match their self-images, or feel trapped in existences that seem not their own. Elders regard life choices with regret or satisfaction based largely on whether they were “true” to themselves.
Questions of authenticity determine our regard for others, as well. They dominated the presidential primaries: Was Hillary authentic when she shed a tear in New Hampshire? Was Obama earnest when his speechwriters cribbed lines from a friend’s oration?
“Americans remain deeply invested in the notion of the authentic self,” says ethicist John Portmann of the University of Virginia. “It’s part of the national consciousness.”
It’s also a cornerstone of mental health. Authenticity is correlated withmany aspects of psychological well-being, including vitality, self-esteem, and coping skills. Acting in accordance with one’score self—a trait called self-determination—is ranked by some experts as one of three basic psychological needs, along with competence and a sense of relatedness.
Yet, increasingly, contemporary culture seems to mock the very idea that there is anything solid and true about the self. Cosmetic surgery, psychopharmaceuticals, and perpetual makeovers favor a mutable ideal over the genuine article. MySpace profiles and tell-all blogs carry the whiff of wishful identity. Steroids, stimulants, and doping transform athletic and academic performance. Fabricated memoirs become best-sellers. Speed-dating discounts sincerity. Amid a clutter of counterfeits, the core self is struggling to assert itself.
“It’s some kind of epidemic right now,” says Stephen Cope, author of Yoga and the Quest for the True Self. “People feel profoundly like they’re not living from who they really are, their authentic self, their deepest possibility in the world. The result is a sense of near-desperation.”
Just What Is Authenticity, Anyway?
Psychologists long assumed authenticity was something too intangible to measure objectively. Certainly Michael Kernis did when, around 2000, graduate student Brian Goldman approached him about making a study of individual differences in authenticity.
“I said, ‘Well, you can’t do that,'” recalls Kernis, a social psychologist at the University of Georgia in Athens, “because nobody thought you could.” But the two plunged ahead, reviewing several centuries’ worthof philosophical and psychological literature. They came up with a technical description of authenticity as “the unimpeded operation of one’s true or core self in one’s daily enterprise.”
Kernis and Goldman (now at Clayton State University) identified four separate and somewhat concrete components of authenticity that they could measure in a written test. The first, and most fundamental, is self-awareness: knowledge of and trust in one’s own motives, emotions, preferences, and abilities. Self-awareness encompasses an inventory of issues from the sublime to the profane, from knowing what food you like to how likely you are to quit smoking to whether you’re feeling anxious or sad.
Self-awareness is an element of the other three components as well. It’s necessary for clarity in evaluating your strengths and (more to the point) your weaknesses: acknowledging when you’ve flubbed a presentation or when your golf game is off, without resorting to denial or blame. Authenticity also turns up in behavior: It requires acting in ways congruent with your own values and needs, even at the risk of criticism or rejection. And it’s necessary for close relationships, because intimacy cannot develop without openness and honesty.
Kernisand Goldman have found that a sense of authenticity is accompanied by a multitude of benefits. People who score high on the authenticity profile are also more likely to respond to difficulties witheffective coping strategies, rather than resorting to drugs, alcohol, or self-destructive habits. They often report having satisfying relationships. They enjoy a strong sense of self-worth and purpose, confidence in mastering challenges, and the ability to follow through in pursuing goals.
Whether authenticity causes such psychological boons or results from them isn’t yet clear. But they suggest why people crave authenticity, as those low in authenticity are likely to be defensive, suspicious, confused, and easily overwhelmed.
Considering the psychological payoffs, Kernis and Goldman ask, “Why, then, is not everybody authentic?”
The Invented Self
For one thing, pinning down the true self is increasingly difficult. Western philosophers have sought some pure and enduring touchstone of I-nessever since Socrates began interrogating the citizens of Athens. He famously asserted that the unexamined life is not worthliving—but left vague exactly what insights and actions such inquiry might yield. Aristotle later connected the fruits of self-reflection witha theory of authentic behavior that was not so much about letting your freak flag fly as about acting in accord with the “higher good,” which he regarded as the ultimate expression of selfhood.
Spiritual and religious traditions similarly equated authenticity and morality. In the wisdom traditions of Judaism, Portmann points out, “people do the right thing because they see it as an expression of their authentic selfhood.” In Christianity, the eternal soul is who you really, truly are; sinners are simply out of touch with their core selves. “The authentic human self is called to be much nobler than what you see on the streets,” Portmann says.
Enlightenment philosophers secularized ideas of selfhood, but it took the 20th century’s existentialists to question the idea that some original, actual, ultimate self resides within. To them, the self was not so much born as made. One’s choice of action creates the self—in Sartre’s words, “existence precedes essence.” For Heidegger and confreres, authenticity was an attitude: the project of embracing life, constructing meaning, and building character without fooling yourself that your so-called essence matters in any absolute, a priori sense.
“The philosophical question is, do we invent this authentic self?” says Portmann. “Or do we discover it?” Socrates believed we discover it; the existentialists say we invent it.
There isn’t a self to know,” decrees social psychologist Roy Baumeisterof the University of Florida. Today’s psychologists no longer regard the self as a singular entity with a solid core. What they see instead is an array of often conflicting impressions, sensations, and behaviors. Our headspace is messier than we pretend, they say, and the search for authenticity is doomed if it’s aimed at tidying up the sense of self, restricting our identities to what we want to be or who we think we should be.
Increasingly, psychologists believe that our notion of selfhood needs to expand, to acknowledge that, as Whitman wrote, we “contain multitudes.” An expansive vision of selfhood includes not just the parts of ourselves that we like and understand but also those that we don’t. There’s room to be a loving mother who sometimes yells at her kids, a diffident cleric who laughs too loud, or a punctilious boss with a flask of gin in his desk. The authentic self isn’t always pretty. It’s just real.
We all have multiple layers of self and ever-shifting perspectives, contends psychiatrist Peter Kramer. Most of us would describe ourselves as either an introvert or an extrovert. Research shows that although we think of ourselves as one or the other (with a few exceptions), we are actually both, in different contexts. Which face we show depends on the situation. As Kramer puts it, “To which facet of experience must we be ‘true’?”
“Whether there is a core self or not, we certainly believe that there is,” says social psychologist Mark Leary of Duke University. And the longing to live from that self is real, as is the suffering of those who feel they aren’t being true to themselves. Feelings of inauthenticitycan be so uncomfortable that people resort to extreme measures to bring their outer lives in alignment with their inner bearings. Portmann notes that people who undergo sex-change operations or gastric-bypass surgeries will say of their new gender or clothing size, “This is who I really am. I’m myself at last.” People who experience religious conversion often voice the same conviction, he says.
Likewise, “patients who recover from depression will say, ‘I’m back to myself again,'” reports Kramer, author of Listening to Prozac. “You can make the case that people are sometimes able to be more authentic on medication than not.”
But most of us experience inauthenticityless dramatically, as vague dissatisfaction, a sense of emptiness, or the sting of self-betrayal. If you’ve ever complimented the chef on an inedible meal, interviewed for a job you hoped you wouldn’t get, or agreed withyour spouse just to smooth things over, you know the feeling.
Inauthenticity might also be experienced on a deeper level as a loss of engagement in some—or many—aspects of your life. At the Kripalu Center for Yoga and Health in Lenox, Massachusetts, where he often teaches, Stephen Cope opens his programs by asking attendees to reveal their deepest reason for being there. “Eighty percent of the time, people say some variation of: ‘I’m here to find my true self, to come home to my true self,’ ” he reports. That response is as likely to come from young adults struggling to build careers and relationships as from people in midlife reevaluating their choices. “They say, ‘Who am I? Now that I’ve had a decent career and bought a house and had a marriage, I’m still feeling profoundly unfulfilled.'”
Another reason we’re not always true to ourselves is that authenticity is not for the faint of heart. There is, Kernis and Goldman acknowledge, a “potential downside of authenticity.” Accurate self-knowledge can be painful. When taking a test, it isn’t always fun to find out where you score on the grading curve. “Our self-images can be highly biased,” Leary notes. “But in the long run, accuracy is almost always better than bias.”
Behaving in accord withyour true self may also bring on the disfavor of others: Must you admit to being a Democrat when meeting with your conservative clients? Does your wife really want to know whether you like her new dress? “Opening oneself up to an intimate makes one vulnerable to rejection or betrayal,” Kernis and Goldman observe. It can feel better to be embraced as an impostor than dumped for the person you really are.
Authenticity also requires making conscious, informed choices based on accurate self-knowledge. Like the existentialists, today’s psychologists emphasize the role of active choice in creating an authentic life: a willingness to evaluate nearly everything that you do. That’s no mean feat in a culture where even simple acts—you can dye your hair any color you want, your television carries more than 500 channels, and Starbucks advertises more than 87,000 ways to enjoy a cup of coffee—require conscious consideration among alternatives.
Such freedom can be exhausting. Baumeister has found that deliberation, no matter how trivial, exacts a cost in psychic energy, of which we have only a finite amount. His studies show that authentic action demands a certain amount of psychological exertion that depletes the self’s executive function. “It’s harder to be authentic,” he says. “It takes more work.”
Leary sees it as an outright burden, part of the perennial longing and doubt that he calls “the curse of the self.” So here we are, stuck with our self-awareness, which also compels us to continually define and refine our sense of ourselves as unique individuals against a background of conformity, superficiality, exhibitionism, and lots of other unique individuals.
But wait, there’s more. In order to realize an authentic life, says Kernis, one often has to set aside hedonic well-being—the kind of shallow, short-lived pleasure we get from, say, acquiring things—for eudaimonic well-being, a deeper, more meaningful state in which gratification is not usually immediate. Sissies need not apply.
The fact is that we tend to flourish under the most challenging circumstances, and enduring the pain and confusion that often accompany them can bring out the best—and most authentic—in us, fostering such deeply satisfying qualities as wisdom, insight, and creativity. But our cultural climate is filled with an alluring array of distractions, from online gambling to video games, that often turn out to be junk food for the mind.
Too Rigid for Our Own Good
But the really hard work, according to Cope and others, is the amount of ego-wrangling required to contact the core self. One of the biggest barriers to authentic behavior, he says, is the arbitrary and rigid self-image that so many of us nurture but which in fact distorts experience and limits self-knowledge. “Oftentimes, the very first line of defense you get with the folks who say, ‘I’m leading an inauthentic life,’ is that they’re living life according to a fixed set of views and beliefs about how they should be.”
A man at a dinner party admits that he married his first wife “because, well, you have to get married sometime, right?” (Actually, you don’t.) A composer who sets music to blockbuster films complains that they are too commercial, but is unwilling to forego such movies’ wide audiences and big paychecks for work on more meaningful projects. In each case, the individual may be guided by unexamined assumptions about what constitutes responsibility, satisfaction, even success.
Kernis contends that we each acquire a mixed set of shoulds, oughts, and have-to’s while still too young to process them. They are neither fully conscious nor deeply considered but are acquired through convention and the expectations of others. Getting beyond these arbitrary strictures often demands the kind of soul-searching that most of us put off or avoid entirely. In fact, much of the work that people do in cognitive and behavioral therapy is to hold such beliefs up to the light and examine where they came from, a necessary step to resolving the anxiety or depression they typically create and that drive people to seek help.
“Jung says the first thing you should do is take a look at those things that are dark in you, the things that are problematical, that you don’t like,” says psychotherapist and former monk Thomas Moore, author of A Life at Work. “You have to be willing to look at things that don’t fit snugly into the image you have of what you would like to be.”
Failures R Us
Becoming authentic, then, means accepting not only contradiction and discomfort but personal faults and failures as well. Problematic aspects of our lives, emotions, and behaviors—the times we’ve yelled at the kids, lusted after the babysitter, or fallen back on our promises to friends—are not breaches of your true self, Moore insists. They’re clues to the broader and more comprehensive mystery of selfhood. “In fact,” he notes, “we are all very subtle and very complex, and there are forces and resources within us that we have no control over. We will never find the limits of who we are.
“People carry around a heavy burden of not feeling authentic,” he says, “because they have failed marriages and their work life hasn’t gone the way it should, and they’ve disappointed everybody, including themselves. When people think of these as just failures, as opposed to learning experiences, they don’t have to feel the weight of their lives or the choices they’ve made. That disowning creates a division that becomes the sense of inauthenticity.”
Kernis’ studies show that people witha sense of authenticity are highly realistic about their performance in everything from a game of touch football to managing the family business. They’re not defensive or blaming of others when they meet with less success than they wanted.
Eastern spiritual traditions have long furnished ways to glimpse the messiness of the self, and to view with detachment the vicissitudes of mind and emotion that roil human consciousness. Buddhism takes the self in all its variability as the principal subject of contemplation; the yogic tradition accords self-study great importance.
The Hindu Bhagavad Gitasuggests we also have a duty to act: to realize our full potential in the world, to construct or discover a unique individuality, and thereby to live authentically. You have to “discern your own highly idiosyncratic gifts, and your own highly idiosyncratic calling,” Cope elaborates. “Real fulfillment comes from authentically grappling with the possibility inside you, in a disciplined, concentrated, focused way.”
That lesson isn’t confined to Eastern spirituality. In The Way of Man, philosopher Martin Buber relates a Hasidic parable about one Rabbi Zusya, a self-effacing scholar who has a deathbed revelation that he shares with the friends keeping vigil at his side. “In the next life, I shall not be asked: ‘Why were you not more like Moses?'” he says. “I shall be asked: ‘Why were you not more like Zusya?'”
Video: Audioslave – Be Yourself
The flowers flee from Autumn, but not you –
You are the fearless rose
that grows amidst the freezing wind.
Watched another Adam Curtis documentary…must see for every sceptical mind: The Power of Nightmares(1-3) (The Rise of the Politics of Fear).
The films compare the rise of the American Neo-Conservative movement and the radical Islamistmovement, making comparisons on their origins and noting strong similarities between the two. More controversially, it argues that the threat of radical Islamism as a massive, sinister organised force of destruction, specifically in the form of al-Qaeda, is in fact a myth perpetrated by politicians in many countries—and particularly American Neo-Conservatives—in an attempt to unite and inspire their people following the failure of earlier, more utopian ideologies.
And watched few anti-global warming documentaries (The Great global warming swindle (Accepted theories about man causing global warming are “lies” claims a controversial TV documentary), Green House Conspiracy, Global Warming Doomsday Called off and some others …
Precaution as a new name of the game…act upon what might happen (what is already told due political and media agenda) and not upon what is real ….
The common denominator: fear.. either of terrorism or global warming…just to keep people in constant fear of inevitable… politicians have to invent a problem to cure it and to defend people from it…if people are constantly occupied with fear of endless treat they sure can not think critical of something else. Even thought that there are no reasonable facts behind. They invent them, they promote them and they become a universal truth. How sadly.
No clear connection between Al Qaeda and 9/11 or to Iraq; no clear connection between CO2 and global warming or sea rise and global warming…but yet…it’s universal truth; its a big hype…kids are more afraid according to research of global worming than terrorism…but where are real facts behind?
if you doubt about terrorism or global warming, you are heretic or as they say ..it’s same as you deny holocaust …
I don’t know how much its true or not on both topics, cos i don’t know for sure who finances one or other media but if doubting is almost a sin, we are back in dark middle age and inquisition… the reasonable doubt is a base of any further human development…
Scientific models or some partial information, promoted as a truth, and nothing but the truth makes me pretty nervous and sceptic.
And just today emerged: Army Radio had quoted a top official in Jerusalem claiming that a senior member in the entourage of President Bush, who visited Israel last week, had said in a closed meeting here that Bush and Vice President Dick Cheney were of the opinion that military action against Iran was called for.
From The Power of Nightmares(1-3) (The Rise of the Politics of Fear).
Ideologist behind Neoconservatives: Leo Strauss – unique America, who is destined to fight the devil in the world, the only good force in the world. Strauss thought that myths are necessary to give people meaning and purpose of life and throught this keep stable society.
PULP (The Fear)
When Franklin D. Roosevelt said “the only thing we have to fear is fear itself”, he meant it in a philosophical sense. But physicians know that the fight-or-flight response that protects the body from harm can sometimes backfire. “If you are terrorised by a God-awful stress, it can take you out,” says Richard Verrier of Deaconess Hospital in Boston. “I don’t think you would find a cardiologist who thinks it’s impossible to die of fright.”
This being human is a guest house
Every morning a new arrival.
A joy, a depression, a meanness,
some momentary awareness comes
as an unexpected visitor.
Welcome and entertain them all!
Even if they are a crowd of sorrows,
who violently sweep your house
empty of its furniture,
still treat each guest honorably.
He may be clearing you out for some new delight.
The dark thought, the shame, the malice,
meet them at the door laughing,
and invite them in.
Be grateful for whoever comes,
because each has been sent
as a guide from beyond.
like this song so much… Pulp (I spy)
underrated band with great music&lyrics
Unbelievable journey…into depth
How rich is the landscape once entering there
how many beautiful colors…fells like being blind before
so little is needed to be you…
but it’s so hard to get there and grab it
when wave length finds another and starts to resonate
true life symphony begins… so intensive, so almighty
that the body is not enough…the powerful force wants
to extend trough the universe…too feel its origin
new souls hold each other tightly in fear of divide
is there any beauty more powerful
than when two souls start a dance,
so harmoniously that earth stops for a while,
stars froze for a moment
and life takes a deep breath to celebrate the union
new world has been just created…
spinning like a magic ball within known one
so vulnerable, so cuty awkward
and yet powerful as big bang
many things to be re-learned,
new touches felt, new smells scented,
new vision seen, new voices heard
everything seems like a fist time…
a unique new world, never existed before
but it will be for always written into the record of this universe
cos it records everything…
every single move, every single feeling, every single touch…
So celebrate, two souls united into one symphony,
“don’t let me go, whispers one another
let me feel you stronger than myself…
hold me so strong that i will crash into your arms
and recreate into you again”
yes, you can hear those whispers
and fear of falling on every corner you turn
you can feel their shaking and heartbeats’ echoes
than resonance breaks and symphony becomes silence
deep silence, omnipotent wall between two worlds…
divided souls are never the same again
big emptiness posses their rooms
and screams as million crying babies
then one day …new beam, from outer space
enters the empty room and tenderly starts to vibrate
…new dance, new creation, new symphony
new mighty force wants to extend across the universe
In physics, resonance is the tendency of a system to oscillate at maximum amplitude at certain frequencies, known as the system’s resonance frequencies (or resonant frequencies). At these frequencies, even small periodic driving forces can produce large amplitude vibrations, because the system stores vibrational energy. Resonant systems can be used to generate vibrations of a specific frequency, or pick out specific frequencies from a complex vibration containing many frequencies.. . .
Wim Wenders’s book: Pictures From the Surface of the Earth is just another piece of art. The beautiful landscape in Until the end of the world movie, i’ve been talking about last time and all visual and lyrical beauty it’s in form of stil pictures and letters here. A bit diferent Wenders, as we know it, but equally brilliant. Today’s news: his new movie, The Palermo shooting, is in Competition on Cannes’s film festival this May. Hardly waithing to see it… (Lauie Anderson, Lou Reed, Nick Cave, Patty Smith probably in it, again.) Wenders about movie: I can say, though, that I have never done anything like it”
Places (Wim Wenders)
Places where we spend our lives.
Places that we visit for just a moment.
Places we discover by chance.
Places that attract us by their name on a map alone.
Places we will never see again.
Places we can never forget.
Places we long to come back to.
Places that scare us.
Places that comfort us.
Places that make us feel at home.
Places we find repulsive.
Places that fill us with awe.
Places we dreamed about
before we ever got there.
Places we got lost in
and places that we lost.
Places condition us.
Places protect us.
Places destroy us
Places from Wenders Paris – Texas
Thank you for being with me
on this journey through the solitude
through the most brilliant and
through the darkest spots of my soul
Thank you, My fellow alchemist
The purification is done
From the stone
to the gold
I understand the whole process now
Its all about me
but can not be done without u
Like my eyes are cleaner now
Like my ears hear voices without noises around
like my touch feels softness again
like my soul feels the whole universe within
and its spreads itself through the whole universe
thank u for the right proportions of all elements
u’ve been added slowly …
to make this transformation done
Where was rage of emotions not long time ago
is a peaceful lake which admires itself speechless on the sky
mirroring its beauty back
bathing in its own beauty and divinity
Thank you for accepting my soul
from East to West…
from North to South pool
Being my mirror you allowed me
to feel myself again and to purify myself
I feel again as should be felt
i adore morning wed
and birds movement sliding across the sky
no border between me and the world
things are walking into me and walking out of me
birds are singing inside me and outside me
air goes in and goes out
so simple, so pure
so unbelievable golden
In searching of Philosophers’ Stone or how to purify yourself
from the book THE ALCHEMY KEY
Fragments from the writings of Heraclitus of Ephesus, a Greek philosopher who lived about 500BCE, suggest that the dry and wet methods have the same result:
Pleasure of souls is to become wet781
The dry soul is the best of all and the most wise782
The way up and the way down are One and the same783
An initiate in the mysteries of alchemy who did not recognize the statement Know Thyself! was not an alchemist. Alchemists who did not know where to start their chemistry were the same as Rosicrucians whocould not find their Order. They were simply initiates who had not yet properly found and accepted themselves, and got on with life.
The only qualification for an alchemical Rosicrucian was to know that the solution was literally within him. A true Rosicrucian knew the philosophical mystery of I.N.R.I and that the hidden, nameless god
labeled Osiris or Amun was the god within himself.
On a more mystical level, the legend of St George represents the personal victory of an individual’s purity and virtue over the hundred evil heads of his own base nature, ignorance and moral vice.855 In alchemical terms, it is the combat of the Knight (Secret Fire) with Stibnite (the Dragon), which, after much purification:856 is born the astral stone, shining as pure as silver, and which appears to be signed, bearing the imprint of its nobility, its stamp (a claw) … a sure indication of the union and peace between fire and water, between earth and air.
The Dragon, who has been female to this point, is now hermaphrodite, meaning both female and male. It takes on the male aspect of the Knight and prepares to mate with the Goddess of Wisdom. In the contrived process of mating, the Dragon disappears and all that remains is the purified, reborn Knight as the beneficent Star of Life, also called Phosphorous, meaning the bringer of light.866 The Soul, of course, never dies and remains constant throughout the process. Revelation portrays this scene.867 The number 666 is the number of a man and represents his Spirit:868 Here is wisdom. Let him that hath understanding count the number of the beast: for it is the number of a man; and his number is Six hundred threescore and six.
The Gnostic-Rosicrucian Knight is a philosopher in search of Truth because he searches for his sacred marriage with the Goddess of Wisdom. If successful, he becomes a Knight Quadosh. Quadosh signifies Holiness, Dedication and Sanctification.884 He is also called a Knight of the Feast of the Brotherhood because his ordeal is celebrated by the Feast of the Brotherhood held on Passover Eve, also known as theAgape or pure Feast of Brotherly Love.
To be governed (as we call it) by one is not safe; for it shows softness, and gives a freedom, to scandal and disreputation; for those, that would not censure or speak in of a man immediately, will talk more boldly of those that are so great with them, and thereby wound their honor. Yet to be distracted with many is worse; for it makes men to be of the last impression, and fun of change. To take advice of some few friends, is ever honorable; for lookers-on many times see more than gamesters; and the vale best discovereth the hill.
“There is little friendship in the world, and least of all between equals, which was wont to be magnified. That that is, is between superior and inferior, whose fortunes may comprehend the one the other.” Francis Bacon
This is the same as the Tenebrae or Darkness in the Roman Catholic Matins and Lauds of Holy Week.960 Lulled into psychological quiescence by Gregorian Chants and the gradual extinguishing of candles, an individual can find nothing in the empty silence and darkness except memories. Deprived of light, the individual is dispossessed of all that isGood. This is the doctrine of privato boni. Memories cannot help to grasp the current situation. The individual is said to be in the cloud of
unknowing. St Dionysius referred to it as divine darkness and others as nigredo. The individual loses complacency and becomes one of the parvulis, poor in spirit, exiled or orphaned. The magnificent Miserere describes this experience:
But what a mystery my life is,
What a mystery!
… But where am I and what am I doing,
how do I live?
… I see myself.
I live in the soul of the world
Lost in the depths of life!
Miserere, miserable me,
But I toast life!
If there is night dark enough
To hide me, hide me,
If there is a light, a hope,
Magnificent sun that shines inside me,
Give me joy to live
That is not yet there.
… That perhaps is not yet there.
A sharp sound cracks the darkness. Light is reborn. A priest returns a single candle to the stand. The candle symbolizes each individual’s magnificent sun, the knowledge of God that dispels the darkness of ignorance and despair. All then leave the Church in silence. Sufism identifies the state of Luminous Night with mystical poverty, described as poor in spirit. People in this stage have nothing with which to be, they cannot be sufficient unto themselves in order to be what they have to be. It is the in-essence of their essence. The Sufi philosopher Semnani said that passing from the Luminous Night to the brilliance of emerald vision is a sign of the completed growth of thesubtle organism,the resurrection body hidden in the visible physical body.961
The initiated know this experience as the happy gate of blackness … which art the passage to this so glorious change.962 It is the gate of Saturn. Apuleius describes his experience of Luminous Night with the mysterious words: At midnight, I saw the sun shining brightly with a splendid light.
Installed master freemasons will know what he means
So, that how it starts. New chapter in life. As always. When something ends. Doesn’t matter if earthquakes within u are small or big or how often they appear they always change the known inner landscape. Yet true; the most intense events live shortly…they explode as supernova…but then…they spread the light across the universe…
“Is reality too powerful for u? Take the risk. Believe what u see and hear. It’s the pulse of every secret intimation u’ve ever felt around the edges of ur life.”
She walked into the room and went to the window. She opened it. She didn’t know why she did this. Then she knew. She wanted to feel the sea tang on her face and the flow of time in her body, to tell her who she was.” (Body artist, Don DeLillo).
I faced it today. Shall i repeat that it is the best thing we’ve ever had. No, I won’t. She bumped on me today, steered into my eyes and kept on asking: “Where is my border? Please, define my border. Is over my border … like antyreality? Can she harm me?”
She seemed scared. Would offer her a cigarette to calm her down. Had none with me. Kind of understand her. Does light see darkness? Does gravity feel antigravity? Does matter touch antimatter? Does reality exclude virtual than ?
Who is the judge? The one who created light? The left or right hemisphere? Me? I would vote for the last one. But this is only my choice. Not anybody else . And I feel good.
I decide and she is not feared anymore. Me neither. Returned into known arms. Don’t promise that i will not escape never again. But now i know now how to come back. In circle of day and night, joy and pain, if you keep on walking you always come back.
Over the border there is no roads, there is a jungle and the road should be created with a machete … sometimes ur on ur knees and begging home …but unknown whispers with such a sweet voice u can not return…you keep on walking and falling.
Than there …suddenly…is a light … …u can see clearly, smell fresh air, hear birds and soft rain on ur skin…
So it is here …the second day …and he said: “Let there be a wor(l)d.”
ENIGMA: Beyond the invisible
I look into the mirror
See myself, Im over me
I need space for my desires
Have to dive into my fantasies
I know as soon as Ill arrive
Everything is possible
Cause no one has to hide
Beyond the invisible.
Close your eyes
Just feel and realize
It is real and not a dream
Im in you and youre in me
It is time
To break the chains of life
If you follow you will see
Whats beyond reality
“A challenging goal in neuroscience is to be able to read out, or decode, mental content from brain activity. … We show that these receptive-field models make it possible to identify, from a large set of completely novel natural images, which specific image was seen by an observer. Identification is not a mere consequence of the retinotopic organization of visual areas; simpler receptive-field models that describe only spatial tuning yield much poorer identification performance. Our results suggest that it may soon be possible to reconstruct a picture of a person’s visual experience from measurements of brain activity alone.”
When i started to read the article i’ve remembered immediately the Wim Wender’s movie “Until the end of the world”. Wonderful poetical movie, great soundtrack, one the best of 90s. Wenders made a movie 1991, 4 years after Sky over Berlin (which mesmerized me) an FarAway So Close(1993), which is sequel of Sky over Berlin. Until the End of the World is a beautiful love story within ScFi drama but far more than that. It’s a road movie, it’s changing so many continents with beautiful scenery, traveling around and observations above the world, shows futuristic vision of Tokyo, San Francisco, Paris,…
But beyond that is vision of future and personal travel within, folded into drama of son (Sam Farber, Trevor McPhee , played by William Hurt) who wants to give back his blind mother (Edith,played by Jeanne Moreau) possibility to see their closest family once again. Device (camera) which allows this was invented by his scientific father’ who worked for government which wants device back. Son is hiding in front of them and due to that travels around the world , meets the girl (Claire played by Solveig Dommartin) who has left the husband to follows him, husband (Gene, played by Sam Neill ) follows her… So much symbolism in this movie. No wonder why the rough director’s cut was 20h and original one 8h (source imdb)
Film ends in Australia (Aboriginal concept of dreamtime), where his mother and father live hidden in cave and experiment further how to record their own dreams, memories and watched them lately . What becomes obsession. Escape into dreams, into memories. And finally disillusion of illusions.
So according to article above, 17 years after Wenders’s ScFi movie of watching memories and dreams , dreams might come true. And his vison of future of comunication as well.
I like Wenders cos he is so no ordinary in so many senses, he is so poetical visually and lyrically. He said: “Sex and violence was never really my cup of tea; I was always more into sax and violins.”
To explain the division of the senses
No sound to reflect
The radiance of time
In the beginningest dream
Halls of disorder
Where we are swept to encircle dawn
Strapped in a low car
Racing thru silence
You could kiss the world
Standing outside the courthouse
In the rain
Seemed like a lost soul
From the chapel of dreams
With a handful of images
Faces of children
Phases of the moon
One little thing you get wrong
Changes the dimensions
Streets, swept memory
Diffused and lost
Like a prayer in the sun
Sometimes you can’t tell
Whether you’re waking up
Or going to sleep
All the games cannot be yours
All the sights, the treasures of the eye
Does the divided soul remain the same?
No equation to explain
Moved, by love
Drawn by the whispering shadows
Into the mathematics
Of our desire
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. French director Michel Gondry did a great job – idea is great … and wish of every human somethimes …to erase memories on some events in life. Cos it hurts cos it burns within. But with bad memories good ones would be erased too cos bad and good is cyclic continuum, impossible to divide where good starts or where bad ends.
And Jim Carrey …like he is progressively evolving one same caracter in different context… in The Truman show (1998)he was lost and cluless within artificial world, in The Majestic (2001) after an accident he lost his memory, with no idea who he is, his past life, or how he got into the city. In Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind (2004)he wanted to lose memories on paifull events and he is lost within his own head, in Number 23 (2007) he lost memory about painfull chaildhood event and he is lost within numbers in his own head… Every 3 years comes J. Carrey’s movie i like a lot. So i’m hardly waiting 2010:-)
And beautiful Back’s music from the movie
Ruining season is in full bloom. Reached 1 hour of run today after some time. Such a relief, such a peace of mind. And shot of endorphins flooding the body 🙂
Remembered Japanese author Haruki Murakami , who’s books i like. He is marathon runner. And those quotes are from his interview in Spiegl.
Murakami: When I am running my mind empties itself. Everything I think while running is subordinate to the process. The thoughts that impose themselves on me while running are like light gusts of wind — they appear all of a sudden, disappear again and change nothing.
And a beautiful music from Era (Gladiator theme: Now we are free), perfect for running ….
Wonderful day. It was 16 degrees and just the right time for first this year’s training. Our women sailing crew is perfect example how team work brings joy and satisfaction. When you are deadly tired but don’t want that day ever ends.
Like sailing so much. Gentle wind, sound of waves, silence and big blue around. And the silence in the marine at the evening when wind is whispering around and stars are your whole visible horizon.
Aboard at a Ship’s Helm
Aboard, at a ship’s helm,
A young steersman, steering with care.
A bell through fog on a sea-coast dolefully ringing,
An ocean-bell—O a warning bell, rock’d by the waves.
O you give good notice indeed, you bell by the sea-reefs ringing,
Ringing, ringing, to warn the ship from its wreck-place.
For, as on the alert, O steersman, you mind the bell’s admonition,
The bows turn,—the freighted ship, tacking, speeds away under her gray sails,
The beautiful and noble ship, with all her precious wealth, speeds away gaily and safe.But
O the ship, the immortal ship! O ship aboard the ship!
O ship of the body—ship of the soul—voyaging, voyaging, voyaging.
Talking about love to the sea…here is a music from great movie Le Grand bleu/The Big Blue. Being a diver, the movie has a special meaning for me.
From the movie:
Jacques (Jean-Marc Barr): You go down to the bottom of the sea, where the water isn’t even blue anymore, where the sky is only a memory, and you float there, in the silence. And you stay there, and you decide, that you’ll die for them. Only then do they start coming out. They come, and they greet you, and they judge the love you have for them. If it’s sincere, if it’s pure, they’ll be with you, and take you away forever.
Longing of the seeds have been fulfilled
this mighty desire
to be reborn
to reach maturity
to bath in the sun
to wash in the rain
to sleep hiden within softly night hug
and joyfully wake up at the morning
Buds are bursting
outside and inside
there is no border
outer and inner space
are pervaded with longing
and awaken desires …
Have been amazed from forever where all big emotions you felt toward someone disappears one day? Although i am emotional and love art a lot i try to base my understanding on scientific facts. I do some squeezes around…if old physics don’t fit into my frame, i take a new approach…so quantum theory or theory of chaos…or some other one…to bring sense into my world. But all of them are teaching that energy can not disappear…that it transforms into something…so into what?
the poem i love from my teenage age. Still inspires me the same as at those days
Exposed on the mountains of the heart (Rilke) Exposed on the mountains of the heart. See, how small there,
see: the last hamlet of words, and higher,
and yet so small, a last homestead of feeling. Do you recognize it? Exposed on the mountains of the heart. Rocky earth under the hands. But something willlower here; out of the mute abyss
flowers an unknowing herb in song. But the knowing? Ah, that you who began to understand and are silent now, exposed on the mountains of the heart. Yet many an awareness still whole wanders there,
many a self-confident mountain animal
passes through and remains. And that great protected bird
circles about the peaks of pure denial. But unprotected, here on the mountains of the heart.
Armin van Buuren – Shivers
A little bit just a little bit…
World’s on turn around
Music make no sound
Where is sweetness found
Where love is gone
Sun don’t come around
Don’t make a sound
Where can love be found
If your heart won’t feel
Up and down my spine
Not on my mind
A little bit just a little bit…
How could it end this way
Don’t leave me, love me
Just a little bit longer
They don’t turn tonight
Morning don’t bring light
Where is sweetness found
Where love is gone
Won’t you stay tonight
Let the truth shine bright
Where can love be found
If your heart won’t feel
Emotions that we share
Signing my face
How could it end this way
Don’t leave me, love me
Just a little bit longer
A little bit just a little bit…
To be great, be whole (F. Pessoa)
To be great, be whole; exclude
Nothing, exaggerate nothing that is you.
Be whole in everything. Put all you are
Into the smallest thing you do.
The whole moon gleams in every pool,
It rides so high.
i love those nights …clear, cold starry nights…
“Do you have the patience to wait
until your mind settles and the water is clear?
Can you remain unmoving
until the right action arises by itself?”
found this great gift today from http://oceanshaman.blogspot.com/2007_08_01_archive.html
i can not tell it better, i admit 🙂
Adopt the pace of nature: her secret is patience.
Ralph Waldo Emerson
“There is no greater illusion than fear,
no greater wrong than to prepare to defend oneself,
no greater misfortune than having an enemy.
Whoever can see through all fear
will always be safe.”
Nature whispers secrets to the shaman where others hear only the wind.
Dan Millman, from Wisdom of the Peaceful Warrior
All this time
The sun never says to the earth,
“You owe Me.”
With a love like that,
It lights the
When one door closes
the new one opens …
and the sky is big again
Songs to orpheus(II,29)rilke
Quiet friend of many distances, feel
how your breath still enlarges space.
Let yourself ring out, a dark cradled bell
in the timbering. That, which erodes you
gains a strength from your sustenance.
Go out and in, through transformation.
What is your experience of greatest loss?
Is drinking bitter, then become wine.
Be, in this night made of excess,
the magic art at the crossroads of your senses,
the sense of their strange encounter.
And, if the earthbound forget you,
say to the silent Earth : I flow.
To the rushing water say: I am.
from dark age toward age of open consciounesess
I am so grateful today…
Everything have come together
Truth showed up
and it shines…so deeply, so highly
it posses the whole horizon and beyond
thanks for my dear friends,
i am never grateful enough for great people
life brought into my circle
how many people u’ve met
how many traits u left
how much power is hidden within
and its freely flowing into those circles
makes us richer
makes us alive
If the only prayer you said in your life was “thank you,” that would suffice. –Meister Eckhart
Herein lies an irony: the person who is trying to manipulate you views you as having greater strength or power than he or she does. ~George H. Green and Carolyn Cotter
Remember that whenever others try to manipulate you, they perceive you as having something they want and as being more powerful than they are. If you’re powerful enough to be a target for a manipulation, you’re powerful enough to take care of yourself. ~Melanie Beatty